The most painful part of losing you kid brother is that you are one person I have always loved. I was always prepared to do anything for you and I know the feeling was mutual and that made loving you so easy. I wanted everything good for you and I wish I had done more. I feel so vulnerable without you buddy, my only question is why? Why did have to go? Was it an accident and nothing but accident? You owe me the truth of your passing cos I’m hurting seriously hurting and confused but above all I miss you and always will.